Thursday, November 11, 2004

Realising the Importance

The shocking incident of the most astute and optimistic friend of mine commiting suicide still creates ripples in my heart. The question of "WHY" beats louder than ever, and will so for the rest of my life. I've never seen a diamond lose its brilliance this quick. A snap and its all gone. Ah the Devil!

But its a moment of realisation that somethings can't be taken for granted, especially friends. Being the closed character my friend had developed himself into, slowly, over a couple of months, was his cause of giving up. After our school days together, distance grew to some extent. The regular monthly or bi-monthly hang-outs or online parties were there, but that wasn't something to replace physical interaction. His life grew darker. He cocooned himself more and more. And one day he found there was nobody to insipire him, rejuvenate his lost spirit, and make him realise the amazing precision with which life injects its doses of love, laughter, tension, anger, guilt, etc. A lonely soul scared from the planet, and whose heart cannot bear the self-assumed defeat went on the wrong track for all the wrong reasons.

The tears in his eyes, the last words he said, the last regrets he expressed, the last love he spoke of, the memories he recollected, the chaos in which he committed the ultimate sin.............................

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